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Originally published 5.9.10
By Nicole Momperousse, Guest Blogger
If you are reading this blog post, then it may be safe for me to assume that you also have a twitter account. (smile) Like many, I tend to use twitter as a release, a venting tool, or sounding board for my thoughts, ideas, and way too often a wasteland for my emotions. You too? LOL
Just the other day I tweeted about a statement my daughter made to me…and my emotional reaction to “Mommy I want to be just like youâ€â€¦just typing those words again brings “IT†all back…Yes I said “ITâ€â€¦ “IT†being that constant state of uncertainty that we as mothers live with either in silence or sometimes out loud like I did on twitter, where I stated that I will write a letter to my daughter expressing to her why ideally I wish for her NOT to be “just like†me.
I felt inclined to share this letter considering the responses I received from my tweets and Mother’s Day being observed today. Please read.
Dear Cheyenne,
From the moment I laid eyes on you, I knew that there was no way I could love another living being as I do you. I want you to know that every day that I watch you grow, I pray for you to be brave enough to face your fears; to fail and have the will to recover and to maintain the esteem and confidence you now have throughout your adolescence and adult life.
It makes me so proud to know that you want to be just like me. Are you sure? Especially considering the amount of time you’ve spent punished in recent weeks (smile). I know that it may not always seem like I’m being fair, or that I understand. But I was once your age, so I’m still young enough to remember what it’s like to be a tweenager!
You, my first born have taught me so much about my own capabilities and have inspired me to continue on my own dream path. It’s never too late to improve your life and do what it is that makes you happy, so I thank God & YOU for choosing ME to be your Mom!!Love you till infinity,
Mommy
Many of you know little about me. However, if you’ve read my previous piece written for Brother Jesse’s Blog then you know quite a bit about me!
Becoming a mother has been the most bittersweet experience of my life. My own mother passed away almost 16 years ago, my father and all of my grandparents are also deceased. I have only one male sibling. For years I convinced myself that the life my mother led and her loss would not impede on my life…and it didn’t until I too became a mother.
I can’t ask anyone what I was like when I was baby or what I used to do at the stages both of my girls are currently at in their lives now. To say that my mothering experience has been trial and error would be an understatement. I remember bringing Cheyenne home from the hospital alone because my husband at the time had to work. She was born prematurely & spent an extra week in the hospital to reach the 5lb requirement to be released. Before I could remove her snowsuit she started to hiccup violently. Scared the living daylights out of me!!
The absolute most difficult and rewarding JOB in the world is to be a mother… I beg you to differ. (smile)
Peace & Blessings!
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